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| The Reader by Jean-Honore Fragonard, 1771 |
I want to
travel more than I have. I want to go back to Rome ,
Paris , London and
Edinburgh Prague and Venice
As for
blogging, well, the instant gratifications are only part of it and not even the
biggest part either. Another reason is because I’m a compulsive writer. I wasn’t
always, but ten years ago I saw a picture online that triggered something and I
started to write and since then I haven’t stopped. I write stories and I blog
because I love to write. It isn’t always easy, but if I don’t write I feel a
bit odd. I certainly don’t want to bash blogging, I love it, but I have, for quite
some time, felt the need to write something with a little more weight,
something lasting. I have wanted to write a book.
And for the
same amount of time I have struggled with little demons that tells me that I
don’t write well enough, that it won’t be interesting enough and that no one
will want to print it, but in the end, what I really feel, is that it doesn’t
matter if I’m not good enough for other, because I need to write this for me.
Even if no one else reads it, I want this for myself. I have already blown the
whistle at Madame Isis Toilette, so some of you already now that I have swatted
away my demons and have started writing a book on 18th century
beauty and makeup. I have a lot of fun right now, researching, trying out
recipes and writing. I want o write a book with accurate history, doable beauty
recipes and makeup tutorials and I know that is an interesting enough subject
and I will do my best to make it good enough for others to read as well.
But this
also means less blogging. I’m not going it up, because I still sew and it isn’t
a chore at all to blog about sewing, but other kinds of posts will have to
stand back for book writing. Less instant Ego stroking for me, but I think the
more long term reward will make up for it.
My dear, I know exactly what you mean about instant gratification (particularly the examples of shopping and blogging that you mention!). Thank you for being so honest - I get the same little ego kick when someone comments on my blogs, too, and recently I've also been questioning why I blog.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with your book - it sounds like it's going to be very interesting, and I know you know this topic. I've recently been wrestling with my own writing demons, so I know how you feel. I'm not a believer in 'self-help' books, but I've found 'Coach Yourself to Writing Success' surprising helpful and really useful (http://www.amazon.co.uk/Coach-Yourself-Writing-Success-Motivation/dp/1444145711/ref=cm_cr_pr_product_top). It's helped me be a lot more productive with my writing over the past couple of weeks, so I'd definitely recommend giving it a go. I'm going to be writing a longer post on Jane of All Trades, but I wanted to mention it to you as it seems relevant!
GOOD LUCK! :) x
Dear Isis,
ReplyDeleteSensible thoughts. You've obviously been mulling this over very carefully, and it becomes a bit compulsive, this writing and blog reading and commenting, and then costuming or researching in order to communicate again. I've certainly felt that over time.
For instance, what really needs doing here is curtain and drapery making, and some redecorating, but the expense is so much more, and it feels less doable, so I put it off.
Happiest of researching and writing on the book. You know that I am so excited about it already.
Very best,
Natalie
Super excited about this! I'm finding the same thing -- not much time for anything else, but I think the satisfaction of a BOOK will outweigh anything else!
ReplyDeletegentlewomanthief: Thank you! I will check the book out. :)
ReplyDeleteNatalie: Compulsive and addictive. :) Thnak you!
Kendra: I'm very glad that you do! And yes, I Think it will be more satisfying in the long run.